The Struggles of 2020 becomes Normalized.

Everyone was so ready to start this new year and live life for a better purpose. Little did we all know that continuous deaths, a deadly sickness, and injustice protest was going to be taking over all year. I’ve been trying to hold on to the last bit of my black hair as my stress levels from work, school work, and extra activities have made my life a tad bit hectic. 

WHAT HAS BEEN MY BIGGEST TEST SINCE THE PANDEMIC? 

Ever since the Coronavirus outbreak, I find myself  in a static position. I have been delayed on purchasing my first apartment; that I was suppose to be living in by early June. As you all can see it’s well past August and we are pushing through September. I can’t take living in a place that already has very little to do and places to go, to being a town of nothing to do at all. 

Students finding it hard to adapt to online school

The place that I’m working at doesn’t pay as much, but enough to barely get by; is making it very hard to save money. I’ve tried to hold off on buying certain thing like types of food, clothing, yet, I need these thing plus more. 

It like I’m pulling a piece of cotton candy, instead of it pulling apart to make a new piece; it just pops right back to the shape it use to be. I'M NOT GETTING ANYWHERE. 

When it come to school work, I planned to be very engaged and ahead. As of today, I can honestly say that my brain is not as focused. I’m so use to being on campus and being hands on; it’s hard for me to keep that working mindset when working from home. I’m too comfortable. 

On top of that, professors are not following the normal schedules, but expect us to go along like we do not have jobs and things to do just as much as they do. All of the zoom meetings are a waste of time because of technical difficulties and like I’ve said before (about not following the time based on our normal class schedule) the new procedures are conflicting with homework time and work as well. 

Student are shown to lose attention span quicker 

No offense to all teachers, but the phrase “ I’ve got my degree you just need to get yours” is no longer an excuse at this point. Students, especially college students are  trying to get their education, work so they won’t be too much of a burden to parents, all while trying to get a good start in the field they have spent their time and money on; all while in a pandemic. What is funny is that it's making it hard to do so because of “social distancing”. 

Teachers have a their job! Not saying that it’s their dream job, but they have a job that they have experience in. Read between the words if it doesn’t make sense because it will. Yes, some task may not be assigned during these times, but how is it affecting the teachers? It’s not, it’s affecting the students. NO ONE THINKS ABOUT THAT. I could go into more details, it’s just that I want people sit and think about it themselves. 

THE REMAKE OF HISTORY IS REMADE AT THE RIGHT TIME? 

As all may know of the death of George Floyd ;if not I will post a link. Floyd was killed while being arrested in Minneapolis, Minnesota. He left behind close family including his five children. 

I can't breath

The united states went into an uproar over the situation. It was almost as if the black community really had enough and wanted to be heard. America broke out with a mass amount of protest across the map; even international countries were join by protesting. 

In my opinion I was all for the protesting, looting all of that. Not just because of the fact that I’m tired of the racial profiling, but because I have the understanding that the black community has been fight for almost two centuries and change. 

It’s getting old. We didn’t ask to be here, just to be killed of because if our features and skin color. I’m sorry whites are can’t think of themselves so they steal our culture. It really pissed me off we can’t have anything yet we are the one making the country generate. 

#BLACKLIVESMATTER

 If the United States keep killing us then I would love to watch   over and seen how the country will operating. My heart is   heavy for all of the men and women killed by police. It hurts       to know they could not live his or her life like everybody else. 

I'm sick of America! I have my doubts of making it into the the journalistic field because I'm dark skin and not light skin. I've grown up being racially profiled by teachers and co-workers ,but I'm still pushing. People are dying left to right and the American citizen are pushing for justice before there is no more people to fight. I would hate to have my kids be brought into this world knowing this is what it looks like.